PART 3 He Loves Me, He Loved Me NOT....

For some reason after he slapped me I was in shock. I remember it as if it were yesterday I was walking on my high school campus like "What just happened, What did I do wrong?" Still thinking this BOY loves me. Not knowing what I really was getting myself into. I can say that I was young and in love, but the fact of the matter was I was STUPID and NAIVE and it's not because I didn't have a father figure, because my dad was there I grew up with a two parent household. I had a stepmother due to the fact that my biological mom and my grandmother died in a tragic car accident when I was two years old (My mom was 29).

My father was always a protector, he made sure that my sister and I didn't want for anything and my stepmother made sure that we carried ourselves like ladies, so I am still trying to figure out how and why did I stay in such an abusive/toxic relationship.

Bill was handsome, protective and kind of smart. I think what attracted me to him was the protection feeling (So I thought).

We dated from 1975 through 1976. After graduating high school I began college classes at our local community college only later dropping out because he didn't want me to go. Everything he would tell me I believed. We decided to get  married  in 1977. Some good days and a lot of bad days. I was still in denial.

The Joy of My Life
In October of 1977 I gave birth to the love of my life, my son. During the birth of my son we almost lost our lives, but God so fit to keep us. After giving birth I was in a coma for three days. I could hear the nurses saying put her baby by her bed and let her hear him cry. I remember opening my eyes and seeing this beauty baby (Because I didn't know what I had) and I said that baby is so pretty and the nurse replied "That's your baby" He was mine all mine.

Emotion Began To Set In
I began realizing what a toxic relationship I was bringing him in.

To Be Continue: HAPPINESS,GAMBLING, DRUGS, RAPE

If You Missed it READ PARTS 1&2

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~Lorraine~

Part 2..He loves me, He LOVED me NOT...The First Sign

In order to share my "He loves Me" story, I must first share my "He Loved Me Not" story and hopefully save someone (male or female) from a toxic relationship.

Bill my high school sweetheart was so manly, such a protector. I thought this was so cute and that he was being so man (thinking to myself he loves me so much). Anytime guy would say anything to me in class he wouldn't get upset with them he would get upset with me and once again I thought how sweet, he cares for me (Not realizing it was a sign of abuse) but I began to realize that it wasn't so sweet so I put an end to the relationship or so I thought.


 A friend of my introduce to me such a nice guy, he played basketball, good grades and treated me like a young lady, but I really didn't feel anything for him. Bill found out that I had been talking to and him went crazy pick up the guy and threw him down on his back thank God he didn't injure him. Once again me with my young minded self thought, oh Bill loves me. These kind of incidents went on and on and I'm still thinking this man loves. I mean he never hit me, UNTIL one day after school I was talking to one of OUR male friends and he saw me. He walked up behind me and as I turned around he slap me so hard and says to me" don't you ever talk to another man" and I said to him, but he's our friend.....

To Be Continue.....Stay Tune and don't forget to READ PART 1

Be Blessed
Spread Love
Share Love
Embrace Love

~Lorraine~

PART 1...He Loves Me, He Loved Me Not.....MY STORY and how it began

Have you ever been in a toxic relationship? Crazy in love with someone who doesn't love you back? Are you currently in love and you want to make it last? Read my story....the healing process begins today.