For some reason after he slapped me I was in shock. I remember it as if it were yesterday I was walking on my high school campus like "What just happened, What did I do wrong?" Still thinking this BOY loves me. Not knowing what I really was getting myself into. I can say that I was young and in love, but the fact of the matter was I was STUPID and NAIVE and it's not because I didn't have a father figure, because my dad was there I grew up with a two parent household. I had a stepmother due to the fact that my biological mom and my grandmother died in a tragic car accident when I was two years old (My mom was 29).
My father was always a protector, he made sure that my sister and I didn't want for anything and my stepmother made sure that we carried ourselves like ladies, so I am still trying to figure out how and why did I stay in such an abusive/toxic relationship.
Bill was handsome, protective and kind of smart. I think what attracted me to him was the protection feeling (So I thought).
We dated from 1975 through 1976. After graduating high school I began college classes at our local community college only later dropping out because he didn't want me to go. Everything he would tell me I believed. We decided to get married in 1977. Some good days and a lot of bad days. I was still in denial.
The Joy of My Life
In October of 1977 I gave birth to the love of my life, my son. During the birth of my son we almost lost our lives, but God so fit to keep us. After giving birth I was in a coma for three days. I could hear the nurses saying put her baby by her bed and let her hear him cry. I remember opening my eyes and seeing this beauty baby (Because I didn't know what I had) and I said that baby is so pretty and the nurse replied "That's your baby" He was mine all mine.
Emotion Began To Set In
I began realizing what a toxic relationship I was bringing him in.
To Be Continue: HAPPINESS,GAMBLING, DRUGS, RAPE
If You Missed it READ PARTS 1&2
Be Blessed
Spread Love
Share Love
Embrace Love
~Lorraine~
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