PART 1...He Loves Me, He Loved Me Not.....MY STORY and how it began

Have you ever been in a toxic relationship? Crazy in love with someone who doesn't love you back? Are you currently in love and you want to make it last? Read my story....the healing process begins today.



THIS WILL BE A SERIES:


He Loves Me
I'm just sitting here looking at my husband (Rickey) without him realizing that I'm talking about our marriage, my past life, my abusive first marriage and how he changed my life. After I finish blogging I will let him read it and sit back and watch the look on his face.


My husband and I have been married over 30 years and trust me everyday is Not a holiday it takes Prayer, Commitment, Trust and Love.


Going back to when we first met. He was riding a motorcycle escorting a funeral procession and I was driving a limousine. Once we arrived to the destination his eyes (seriously) captured my full attention, not knowing that he had asked one of the other limousine drivers,  "Who is that with those long legs?" LOL...yes it was me...he was 26 and I was 24. Until this day he and I go back to when we met.


We didn't exchange words or phone numbers that day. It wasn't until 2 weeks later when we began talking. During this time I was somewhat of a distant woman because of a very abusive relationship I was previously in.




He Loved Me Not
Going back to 1975 when I met my high school sweetheart (Bill) and thought I was so in love. I should have known better because the signs were all there. I don't want to dwell on this relationship to much because it brings back some bad memories. I married him in 1977 and in 1977 our child was born and the birth of my child almost killed me, But God saw fit to keep us here.


This man was jealous, controlling, a cheater, physically and verbally abusive. Like some women (not all) I was thinking I don't want a divorce,  I want to make this marriage work. One day after visiting my aunt I came home and he asked me why I was there so long and I said to him, "I was spending time with my aunt!"  he then grabbed me by my face and bit me. Later that evening, I prayed and ask the Lord to please get me out of this mess and I haven't looked back since. However, this relationship hindered me with trust for a very long time.


To be continued: and don't forget to READ PART II


Be Blessed
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-Lorraine